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For two decades, holding African Conferences every year is physically arduous; coping with reality by saying ‘All the work that has been done until now is enough.’
All this time, due to Covid’s effects, the plan of going to Africa was delayed over and over again. It is truly a strenuous journey, and alongside the spiritual, financial, and mental pressures, the long flight going and coming back leaves me totally worn out.
But since it is still a land that the Lord visits and takes care of, although I may not have abundant finances, I must go with the mission. The conference where the Holy Spirit works, orphanages in Islamic areas, and the sparkling eyes of the little children that can’t eat properly. The newborn children with AIDS have already become teenagers, and with the increasing number of people, new schools and churches are being constructed.
Tens of thousands of dollars to the many children is pocket money, and it feels like a jar with a hole in the bottom. When I hear of how the Korean Megachurches go to Africa with millions of dollars, receiving president-level bodyguard protection, going shopping, and spending freely, it feels like they are out of touch with the purpose of missionary work and saving souls, and it leaves me sorrowful.
When I was praying and thinking of having to go to Uganda again, and making a decision as I was calculating the expenses required, it was very troublesome. Due to it being an underdeveloped country, the expenses are incredible. Our hotel fees, food, and school supplies for the orphans, serving the church and establishing it; taking care of the cassava, vegetables, banana farms (planted in a land about 450,000 to 900,000 square feet), the neighbors in a difficult situation, and the small churches; all these things we must take care of them so they will be independent.
Starting from Korea and going to Africa in itself is two days, and coming back is the same. As this trip to Uganda is one in a long time, we must bring the presents of the Lord with us. For spiritual presents, since the Holy Spirit is with us in anointing, presence, and fire baptism, it is free, but we must take the Korean school supplies, which are high quality, and we are also trying to take with us other presents and candy. All this luggage is weighty. I am requesting cooperation and prayers. I bless those who are already with us. Do not think that you are humanely helping me, Bishop Kim (let it be that you are cooperating in the work of the Lord and for a rigorous missionary country, and also remember that I am just merely a worker transporting the message).
Yesterday morning, I was in the midst of concerns and prayers regarding the decision of whether I should go or not. Although there were dissuades from people around me, after I made the decision to go, Satan took immediate action and attacked me. But, of course, my carelessness also took a part. After returning from America, and while trying to lose the weight that I gained, I ate an old orange in the refrigerator and some expired kimchi on an empty stomach. Very soon after, I developed acute food poisoning, and for two days, I experienced gut-wrenching vomiting. Alongside my stomach ache, the unceasing vomiting and diarrhea left me immobile on the bathroom floor. I endured for one day, but then I was transported to the hospital. But on the bathroom floor, in my immobile state, my spirit was awakened. I started to see the emergency communication network of the spirits connecting Korea and Uganda. It was unbelievable how busy they were moving, as if there was a war happening.
The devil in Korea and the evil spirits in Uganda approached me, grinding their teeth, and shouted, “Why? Why are you coming to Uganda again!!! You bastard!!!”
Those jerks harassed and threatened me, swinging their fists, which were the size of the Earth, saying, “You bastard!!! Try and experience some pain!!!” and they also said that they would kill me. I was hesitant multiple times because of the temptation to cancel the trip to Uganda due to physical and spiritual weariness. Whenever I try to hold a conference in foreign countries, I pay a high price physically.
But what really isn’t fun is that these enemies of mine who call themselves interceding prayer warriors chaotically say, ‘Many events of blessings will occur in Uganda.’ “Oh, Bishop Kim, it‘s probably so nice to be you because the Lord is always with you, right?”
Maybe it’s because I have aged a tiny little bit, but when I see my grandchildren growing up and their playful gestures (“I love Yong Doo grandpa more than Jeoung Chul grandpa (maternal grandfather), it’s almost brainwashing, I am so joyous, and I just want to settle down. But, experiencing fecal reflux and extreme hardships to the point of death for two days (Jonah was in the fish’s stomach for three days, and I received the mercy to experience two days, which is reduced from 3 days by one day, and all this on my bathroom floor).
Either way, repenting in ways I have never repented before in my life, and with abrupt and unexpected repentances automatically flowing from my mouth? With my heart going back to the time I was in theology school, I am reacting to the Lord’s calling with an intense passion, and I am praying apologetically for my weaknesses, which were grumblings and complaints. Lord!!! I guess I am also growing old, but I will leave everything behind and follow you, Lord, trusting you!!!
“Unless the Lord builds a house, They who build it labor in vain; Unless the Lord guards a city, The watchman stays awake in vain.”
Psalms 127:1
A church, a workplace, missionary trips, health, finances, and a household, God must build it and God must do it. Whether I am doing it or God is doing it, everything that is done must be done by God. But of course we must also do our part. Ultimately, God must help and God must work. Hallelujah!