Hello Beloved Church!
Beloved Sr Pastor Yoojin asked me to post the following. ♥️🙏
Last week, Beloved Sr Pastor Steve said he watched the ladies’ Holy Dance during worship and felt that God wanted more surrender from us.
I took that to heart and in prayer that night, I told God I would surrender to Him more, and I asked Him to help me FULLY surrender. I also prayed to be free with Him.
My prayer from the moment I learned that I would be going on the altar this week was that my Holy Dance would be pleasing to God, that it would glorify Him, and that my will and my thoughts would not interfere or be a distraction.
As I prepared for Holy Dance on the altar on Sunday, I tried to be careful to keep my focus on God and to prepare my spirit, mind and appearance accordingly. My primary thought and prayer was “what would this look like if I was in Heaven going before God’s throne?”
I was scared and crying even before going on stage. I felt unworthy of the privilege.
As I waited, I prayed that the Holy Spirit would anoint me with His Holy Dance anointing and that I would flow with Him. I asked Him to help me not to notice the crowd and to focus completely on God.
When music first started I felt like I was frozen – like my body didn’t want to move. This has never happened to me before, but I recognized it as an attack. I prayed for the flow of the Holy Spirit, and He helped me feel the flow to begin.
I immediately felt the importance and seriousness of what I was doing. As I surrendered my body to the Holy Spirit, I felt new moves happening to me. I knew I was before the throne of God. This was no small matter.
As I danced, I kept thanking God for freedom and for being so good to me.
I also felt the weight of the sins of my life, and how good God was to allow me to go before Him. I was repenting and trying not to cry. My body was trembling. The best way I can describe what I was experiencing is to compare it to what it must have been like when Mary washed Jesus’ feet with her hair and her tears.
God kept reminding me of different words He has given me and my family. It was kind of like He was saying “remember when I told you this? And remember when I gave you that?” It was like He was delighting in the beautiful things He has done for me. I felt so unworthy and kept thanking Him.
Yesterday, I was very emotional all day, and my body was very achy and tired.
Today I’ve been thinking about what a sacred and beautiful gift Holy Dance is and how it’s unique to our ministry.
It is such a privilege to be in this ministry. 🔥🥹
Elder Ellen Mata